Palm Sunday

2 04 2012

“On Palm Sunday Christians celebrate the triumphal entry of Jesus Christ into Jerusalem, the week before his death and resurrection. For many Christian churches, Palm Sunday, often referred to as “Passion Sunday,” marks the beginning of Holy Week, which concludes on Easter Sunday.
The Bible reveals that when Jesus entered Jerusalem, the crowds greeted him by waving palm branches and covering his path with palm branches. Immediately following this great time of celebration in the ministry of Jesus, he begins his journey to the cross.

The biblical account of Palm Sunday can be found in Matthew 21:1-11; Mark 11:1-11; Luke 19:28-44; and John 12:12-19.” – Taken from about.com

Unfortunately, for the very young, they are a little too blur to understand the true meaning of the waving of palm leaves, so when they got their hands on them swishy green things, they proceeded to:
1) Sweep the floor
2) Engage in leaf fights with one another
As you can see in the picture, Littlelam and her little friend were busy swiping each other in church. Too cute, but remind me to explain the meaning of it to her again next year.

(edit: apparently the photo failed to load previously)

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Thankful Thursdays #1

5 01 2012

Ok so I’m not exactly in the mood right now to be thankful. But, I made a commitment, and what better way to ease myself out of this foul mood than to take a step back, breathe and start counting my blessings!

Over the past week, I’m thankful that:

- LittlerLam is getting more and more steady at walking and is a joy to watch
- LittlerLam is calling me “mama” with the most endearing tone, and coming to hug me
- I got to meet up with some wiser, more mature church friends who blessed us with a wonderful home-cooked dinner
- my mother-in-law came by this morning with McDonald’s hotcakes and chwee kway (not from McD!!) for breakfast
- I managed to get a gelish pedicure, plus a facial within the past week! Woah! Much good me- pampering
- renovations are progressing along and I feel I can trust my contractor

I think there are lots more but for now, this is good :) and the source of my initial frustration is now asleep, so writing this WAS a good idea. Me likey.

Praise God from whom all blessings flow!





Thoughtful New Year’s Eve

31 12 2011

As many of my friends and the people around my block ring in the New Year at some exciting nightspot or party with friends I sit by Littlelam’s bed still waiting for her to fall asleep. I’m feeling rather pensive & a little melancholic even as I am still humming a lullaby by auto-memory and type this on my iPod touch.

Everyone has blogged about the year gone past and most of my pals have had a good year. I must say that my year improved a little towards the end, but I would consider 2011 to be my year of upheaval, trial and testing. But I am thankful that God is putting me through the refiners fire now, rather than later when it is too late.

When I think of 2011, I think of 3 keywords: Brokenness, Helplessness, wordlessness.

1) I’m learning a lot about Brokenness this year and it’s still an ongoing lesson and aspiration of mine. Brokenness to me is the realisation of one’s utter wretchedness and inability to cope without God, and then sinking in utter surrender into the arms of Jesus the Saviour. For me, it was the culmination of a critical mass of trials that hit me together and in rapid succession that broke the camel’s back. And this very stubborn camel still attempts to walk on her own! I pray that in 2012, I will continue to walk in brokenness yet in joy and wholeness in Christ.

2) Helplessness isn’t a state that most people would want to be in. But I felt for about 85% of 2011, that I was so helpless and not in control of so many things. My daily schedule was dictated by kids’ needs, I hardly had any me time and so many decisions I would like to have made on my own, quickly, couldn’t be done. Instead, I had to wait for months for the issues to be mulled over, discussed and re- discussed and mulled again. And our family was buffeted by many bouts of flu, stomach flu, bacterial infections etc. So once again, I felt helpless against these sicknesses. I pray that in 2012, we will have better health, eat healthier & sleep earlier. More importantly, that I will not feel helpless but that I am WILLINGLY giving up my will and control to God. That I will trust that He has the best in plan for me, if only I listen to Him.

3) Wordlessness- this mainly refers to the fact that I stopped all my freelance writing, and have become a real full-time mom with no other day job other than poop-cleaner, crumb-picker, nose-blower, butt-patter, chef, banker, designer, teacher, driver, janitor and police at home! I have also been left speechless several times at the rudeness and audacity of Littlelam’s replies to me when she is in a rebellious mood/ situation. She can truly argue her way so well that sometime I am either too shocked to reply and have to just tend to the task at hand and deal with it later, or I am too hurt and angry that I have to walk away, and get her Daddy to talk to her. Words also have been the bane of my life this year (ok, not counting sleep issues- that’s probably the top bane): I either speak the wrong ones at the wrong time or interpret others words wrongly and become too sensitive and defensive. I must learn to reign in my tongue and also learn to listen better in 2012!

On this last day of 2011, I also realized again how much I’m actually with my kids. I don’t know if it is a good thing because my stress level has been very high having to cope with the constant, never-ending cooking, feeding, cleaning and meeting everyone’s demands. I feel like everybody wants a piece of me and I don’t ever get to just be ME. alone. I so crave and want that for 2012.

I also have a question to anyone who is a kid and reading this (or whoever wants to reply, pls do!!): Do you think you prefer your own mum and dad to look after you most of the time, or someone else? I’m just not sure anymore that it is better for me to continue to be a stay-home-mum, since almost everyone I know has so much alternative caregiving help and they all seem to be enjoying life. And more importantly their kids seem to be doing so well. So maybe it’s better rather than having a perpetually stressed out and yelling mum! Haha!

For 2012, I’m still working on my resolutions, but I reckon it’ll be much like what I just wrote.

Looking forward to several new things happening though. I do feel a change in the wind.
- I’m going to be moving to a different part of Singapore
- Littlelam will be changing to a new Kindergarten and leaving her close friends
- on the spiritual front I also feel there is change afoot… Exciting times of battle and growth I hope!

Here’s to a fabulous 2012, everyone!

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Girly afternoons

12 12 2011

Last week I brought Littlelam with me to trim her hair while I got a haircut at the hair salon. My hairstylist was so nice she waived the charge for Littlelam since it was only a trim of the fringe.

LittlerLam also got her very first haircut EVER last week. At exactly 14 months, she finally has enough hair to cover her ears a little and her fringe was sporadically long enough to poke her eyes. So I got grandma (who has cut all our hair before) to do the honors! Thankfully, it all turned out pretty nicely!

Littlelam having her hair cut by a senior hairstylist,

 

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While LittlerLam gets to play dress-up (Which she isn’t fond of at all!)

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Baby reindeer

11 12 2011

I don’t have many great pictures of LittlerLam cos she really hates dressing up. This is in stark contrast to her older sister who can go overboard with the accessories. But I did manage to get her to wear this for a precious few seconds, in time for me to snap a photo!

“Oh deer!”

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Christmas season is here!

30 11 2011

While we don’t have snow or cold weather here in December, we do have rain and lots of Christmas lights.

Last night we happened to be in the Orchard area having a fabulous local food buffet at Straits Kitchen, celebrating a birthday. So after dinner, we took a very short walk down Scotts Road, then drove through Orchard Rd for the rest of it because it was getting too late for the kids.

I was pleasantly surprised that this year’s decor was more understated and simple without funny looking reindeer or Santas. Just blue and white lights draped like flowers on a vine. Here are some shots I took using my trusty iPod touch:

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Good Company at Blu Jaz

13 11 2011

Despite being a SAHM for 5 years now, I’m very lucky to have friend in high hip places who still keep in contact with me and don’t find me too fuddy-duddy to ask out :) This week was a very nice surprise because it was an unexpected gathering of old pals (dating back 20+ years!!) at another one of our old pal’s music gig at Blu Jaz Cafe.

My Lychee Martini at Blu Jaz

Now an established jazz musician, Chok Kerong used to play piano with me on drums in our church Youth Band when we were teenagers. I’m so honoured that I once had the chance to play with such an amazing talent. Even at that tender age, he was already filling in the gaps with unbelievably complicated but beautiful jazz riffs – which, unfortunately was not really appreciated by everyone, simply because it was too brilliant, I believe :) And I think jazz is not something that is for the masses. Not everyone knows how to appreciate jazz. I think it was he who introduced me to Sonny Rollins and I attribute my meagre collection of jazz CDs in the 1990s to him and a few other friends. Ah, the good old days of irritating my family with high pitched squeals of the saxophone and the more pleasing sounds of Dave Brubeck. Heh.

Well, enough reminiscing! Here are the pictures of Kerong (who still looks exactly the same to me!) and the band who performed with him for his CD Launch performance 10 November. He has got some really great songs on his CD, entitled Good Company! and I can’t believe I forgot to buy one and get it autographed! Cos I was too busy being Cinderella and rushing home by 11pm because Littlelam was refusing to sleep and waiting up for me! Sigh. I actually had a baseline in one of his songs stuck in my head for the whole night! haha!

Blur picture of the virtuoso in action (sorry, ipod pics not so good!)

Clearer picture of Kerong and Soh Wen-Ming on drums. I felt rather wistful about my long-gone drumming days watching him.

Greg Lyons on saxophones. (Incidentally, Jeremy Monterio's head is to the right of the picture.)





Something’s wrong with our society

18 10 2011

Many people have been utterly horrifed and disgusted and angry after hearing (and watching) the news of a 2 -year -old girl being run down TWICE by two vans, while passers-by just PASS BY. Here’s the link to an article with still pictures so it’s not so graphic cos I really can’t take watching the real video.

As a mother, my heart breaks for the parents of the child who was left to die on the road, with not so much as a glance from the people driving/ walking past. How is it that the people of Foshan in Guangdong, China have become like that? Is it only in that city? Or is it the whole China? Or is it because no one cares, so everyone thinks, ‘why should I?’

This piece of news made me think of two things. 1) Children are now not being valued in society as who they are, but as ‘sustainable population’ or ‘the future of society’ and counted in economic terms. 2) Whatever is slowly perpetuated and condoned in a society, no matter how bad it is at first, will start to become ‘acceptable’.

1) I am angry that children are now treated like refuse. All over the world, children are still thrown away in the garbage, killed in the womb, and when/if they arrive safely in the world, are frowned upon, shouted at, treated like they are a great big bother and should not be allowed even at cafes, restaurants or airports. Believe me, I’m not a ‘googoogaga’ person by nature ie: I totally don’t go gaga over a baby, or squeal and giggle when a child does something ‘cute’. I am rather nonchalant myself to my own kids’ antics and sometimes I feel guilty that I’m not amused at all when Littlelam says, “Is that funny?”. (Cos usually it’s something that involves a lot of cleaning up or time for me…). But I do realise that now the tide is against little ones. Yet its even harder for those who HAVE children to raise them right in today’s society. When they get older, they are but a statistic in schools. Well, at least in Singapore. Schools are more concerned with keeping their rating up, ie: make sure you get the best possible results from the cohort of kids, so try to get those ‘non-performers’ to drop out, or not take the exams, or beat and whip them to study till they end up with mental health problems. So there you have it. Our economic future.

2) People tend to be influenced by the majority, rather than influence. I experienced it when I first started living in the HDB heartlands. I NEVER used to dream of throwing stuff out of my high-rise window, but because so many people have been hurling hair, fur, tissue, fruit peels, water and other unmentionable items out of the windows, I gradually became hardened and if I had a small piece of paper or lump of hair and I was just near a window, I’d just chuck it over too! (oops!) I caught myself thinking, “Aiyar, since everyone does it, and they throw more digusting stuff anyway.” But I realise that’s really giving in to the negative ‘bochap’ and “I care only about myself’ attitude that is so rampant already!

I realise also that just because something is common and widespread in society doesn’t mean it is right! In China, there have so many reports of food products being contaminated by poisonous substances, but do the people involved stop? No. It’s how everyone does things so if you don’t you won’t survive. It’s always hard to be the lone voice, always hard to be the only one doing the right thing because sometimes the wrong thing doesn’t seem so wrong anymore.

Oddly enough, someone also just sent me this article written by a guy called Matt Moore, who, even as he struggles with homosexual tendencies, believes that his struggle is no different from any other Christian’s struggle with a particular sin. I think this is a very rational and accurate analysis and his article is extremely thought-provoking and brave. I’m just going to provide the link to the article here, but I found a few of his quotes to really resonate with me. I think it is so true, not just about homosexuality but about sin in general.

Here are some extracts:

Homosexuality is no greater than any other sin- like adultery, fornication, etc. I asked God to let me look at this through His eyes and not my own. Culture has made homosexuality “NATURAL”. Because it feels natural. (” There is a way that seemeth right unto a man, but the end thereof are the ways of death”- Proverbs 14:12) Well based on that logic, pedophiles would also just be “born that way” and there should be nothing wrong with that. Same thing with adultery. Honestly, it’s just a matter of time before our culture decides that pedophilia and adultery are just as “natural” as homosexuality and should not be looked down upon, and that they should be accepted as a functioning part of society.

I then knew that homosexuality is not an “identity” or an “orientation”, it is a SIN stemming from LUST. It sounds like I’m downplaying the struggle people have with homosexuality, but I assure you I am not. That is just the simple truth of it. The world has made being gay as identifying and unchangeable as the color of our skin or eyes. But it’s not. It’s SIN. SIN that should be repented of just as any other sin. Sin that can be abolished and made clean by the blood of Jesus Christ. When you say that you were “born this way”, you’re absolutely right. WE ARE ALL BORN SINNERS INTO THIS WORLD. That is why Jesus said that unless we be born again, we will never see the Kingdom of God. When we start looking at it for what it really is, we start seeing and accepting that fact that homosexuality is in fact something that can be repented (turn way from) of and forgiven for.”

I was recently talking to a friend who was arguing that if we as Christians allow society to dictate what is ‘acceptable’ and not stand up for what God created as right, then we are not doing our job as Christians. She said that we have to dare to make noise to stand against the darkness then soon we’ll even be condoning pedophilia, porn etc.. I quipped to her that “Aiyar, Pedophiles are different lar, like murderers etc.. of course people won’t allow that in Singapore.” But she countered me by saying that just a decade or two ago, being openly gay in Singapore was a total taboo and considered as socially unacceptable. So what is there to say that ANYTHING, ANY SIN would start to be condoned as ‘natural’?

Many things to think and chew about, but this one thing I am certain. We all really need Jesus.





Election fever 2011

18 05 2011

Everyone in Singapore was caught up in all the buzz of the General Elections 2011, which saw many citizens voting for the very first time in their lives. Not because we had only just come of legal age, which is 21, but because most of us lived in constituencies that have never been contested and always experienced walkovers. But as this is purely a “mommy blog”, and there has been waaaay too much analysis and tabloid-esque coverage already, I shall just post pics of the 2 rallies Littlelam actually attended!

The majority of Singapore was jolted from its apathetic slumber this time round and the war was mainly waged in cyberspace. And there was (is) a lot of blood and gore. The people got what they wanted, and just an hour ago the new Cabinet line up was announced, with more Ministers falling by the wayside (aka retiring). I’m rather neutral to it all mainly cos I’ve been too busy with mundane things like cooking, laundry, pureeing food and dealing with various bodily fluids. But, but, a few things do come to mind:

1) Be careful what you ask for cos you just might get it

2) People are meaner online than in person, maybe because the cloak of anonymity allows them to show their true colours, or forget that there are ramifications

3) God is still on the throne and in control. Phew!

Here are some pics I took using the iPod

Worker's Party Rally - see the sea of supporters

Littlelam 'taking pictures' with her toy camera at the PAP rally

Lim Swee Say speaking in Mandarin

People at the PAP rally

Polling Day! I couldn't resist a picture of the Polling Station cordon. That's allowed right? As long as I didn't bring camera in :)





Sunny days

19 03 2011

While Singapore is termed as a Garden City, many of our kids still tend to be cooped up at home busy with homework or at the computer. And when weekend comes, many parents still tend to take the children out shopping at an indoor mall (often for convenience) and I’m also guilty of that. This aircon trap is also made worse cos our weather is so humid, hot and well, tropical! So if it’s not too blazing hot, it’s dumping down a thunderstorm!

That’s why when there’s a beautiful sunny day with cool breeze, I try my hardest to take the kids to a park or somewhere in the open. Hopefully they can enjoy this while they are still young and not inundated with homework!

LittlerLam seeing a huge pond for the first time at Singapore Botanic Gardens

Littlelam feeding the fish (and herself) some bread

A flock of Eurasian Tree Sparrows came to join the bread free-for-all

Super excited by the spraying jets of water

Not really swimming...wading!








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